"Never chase love, affection or attention. If it isn’t given freely by another person, it isn’t worth having."
I will remember this. NO ONE should have to beg ANYONE for love or affection or attention. Those who truly love you will always be willing to give their love, affection and attention without hesitation. It will be a given. “Love you? OF COURSE. Let me show you.” That’s the way it should be. Don’t settle for less.
I’m mad for wanting to be there for you. I’m mad for wanting to help you make your dreams come true. I’m mad for wanting you to have what I always believed you deserved. I’m mad for always wanting to pick you up and drive you to the places you want to or need to be at. I’m mad for depending on you. I’m mad for always believing that you’ll make me feel loved and wanted as I deserve to be. I’m mad at remembering what it was like when we were in love and happy. I’m mad at the time you spend with me like just being friends is the easiest thing in the world. I’m mad at pouring my heart out and hearing silence in return. I’m mad at waiting. I’m mad at hoping. I’m mad at wanting. I’m mad at the dreams I have of you missing me and telling me that you love me. I’m mad at my heart for being broken and not healing. But most of all I’m mad at myself for still being madly and hopelessly in love with someone who does not love me.
So please forgive me if I say things that sound rude. Forgive me if I call you names and throw you attitude. I’m just so, so mad.
I try my hardest to hate you but I just can’t. Forgive me.